THIS IS HOW I MISS YOU

CHAPTER I – I MISS WEARING THOSE HEELS

I MISS WEARING THOSE HEELS, PRETENDING YOU WERE THERE, PRETENDING THERE IS NO SHAME. ALL GONE. IN THE DESIRED DENIAL YOU LEFT, AS PRAYER, I FELT UNSTEADY & I REMEMBERED I WAS BBROKEN TO THE BONES. HAZY WITH NO GRAVITY. I WAS TRYING TO BRING YOU, ME, BACK TO EARTH AGAIN, BACK TO LIFE AGAIN. BUT I JUST STAYED IN THE KITCHEN INSTEAD.

UNKOWN

| So I have put them on

& I felt unsteady
Wake me
Wake me up, darling
I lost track of time for so long
& I can’t bare to have your ghost for only company
You told me she is electricity
She was indeed
Wake me
Wake me up, darling
There is always fear
In the tenderness you give |

 

CHAPTER II – I MISS LA PETITE MORT

La Petite Mort
Whisper slow, dance with me.
I have thoughts that keep me awake at night and that can’t let me live at day.
You are one of these thoughts.
Now that it is quiet I need peace.
I am so grateful to be alive but a world without you doesn’t mean much.
Dive into it, slow down, I have been waiting for this
How come we can’t laugh like we did it then?
Hold on, la Petite Mort is coming.
No Kiss Goodbye

Listen.

Can you hear it. The last cadence of her breath.
Make it happen fast.

Because there is no kiss goodbye.

At least mine.

What’s the bargain. Tomorrow is yours.
Once again. Not mine.

It has to be over.

I know you are far.
And still turn me inside out.

Used to wear it on my sleeves.
Machiavellian. Natural. Villain.

You won’t suffer from it.

You won’t suffer from it.

I used to say.
I guess I will never be worth the deadly while.

Listen.

Can you hear me.

CHAPTER III – I MISS WHEN THE 7AM HOUR MEANT SOMETHING

|I am so grateful to be alive but
Now that it is quiet I question if I really belong
I am so grateful to be, even caged alive, but
A world without you doesn’t mean much
Now that it is quiet I stand here blank
& then I learnt the truth
As I looked out the window
I realised that like the Sun unwashed & the Moon untouched
I will love until it hurts
There is no escape to the caged bleeding heart
So I keep waiting… I miss when the 7am hour meant something|

NOW THAT IT IS QUIET

I NEED PEACE

MUSIC

Gotan Project – Mi Confesion

Blue Foundation – Eyes on Fire 

Ex:Re – The Dazzler

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EDITING

l__artist Lara Fournier

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